February 2012
A vast majority of my reason to cry is honestly because I’m angry at myself than I am with anything else. Coming to 19 years of my life and this epiphany hits me right when I woke up. Pathetic.
I’m not the sort that would consult a person’s close friend and seek advice to solve a problem I have with that person. I go to the person directly. I find these other people so irrelevant to my life.
purplewhales:
“I know places” - Lykke Li (Cover...
AKLTG
Even though I’ve had Leroy (a life coach) for 3 sessions for the past 3 or so years, and he repeats his stories and is a bit of a douche at times, I’m still glad to have known him. He’s still the only coach that could get these messages and values into my head as compared to the others. Just saying.
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15,000th
It’s coming to my fourth year of owning this blog. One day when I’m old as hell I’ll spendy retirement days reading back on the ridiculousness that was my youth. Unsure why I stay on, but it might be social network that comes with tumblr.
I have a terrible problem of keeping in contact with damn near anyone. Honestly, it seems like I can’t take the initiative to catch...
Personally, I don’t like the term Best Friend Forever. You can be my best friend for as long as you’d like, I won’t obligate anyone to stick by me that long. People leave me anyway.
I’m led to believe that your spouse or romantic partner should also be your best friend. Pfft, like they’ll ever open up to you about everything. Keep things from me, I honestly...
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Always keeping up a smile especially when you’re not. I only want to know your well-being; it’s not like I can do anything if I knew that you aren’t doing so fine. These small things matter to me, but if I’m deprived of that too, then perhaps I’m either asking too much or caring too much.
There is literally no one at arms reach that would bundle me up in their arms...
“Oh, Everytime we say goodbye I die a little
Everytime we say goodbye I wonder...”
– Ray Charles
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It’s close to 5am and I just woke up when I initially intended to have a half an hour nap last night. I’m just so tired from the past few days.
Millennia Institute’s La Victoire Orientation 2012
The newbies are in from all sorts of secondary schools and I’m exhausted from guiding them around and screaming at the top of my lungs and running everywhere to look for...
January 2012
trashcanz:
How can I ever, ever hate you?
Today I fell into an emotional pit. Familiar yet this time there was a feel of resentment. It suffocated me. If I ever had a moment of claustrophobia, that would’ve been it. All I could do was sit and cry for hours.
My voice of reason chimed in, one I might’ve forgotten I had. He pulled me up. How long more until I fall back? How much stronger will I be? Who will be there next time?
Kimak, ni budak nak step mane pey rapat. Baru brape minggu eh kenal, jangan nak coolcool je. Terajang sampai muke pecah baru tau.
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“Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.”
– Adele
Slipping into the mode of late 2009/early 2010.
Not a very healthy year, that was.
Who’s gonna save me this time?
Dah tukar password nampak.
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M: If you're overseas and something happened to you, or even if you died, no one will remember to tell me.
I: Don't be so negative. Be positive.
M: ...It's like as though you just knew me.
You offended me, did you know that? You’re the only one whose words could cut me this deep.
Life goes on.
Whether one is angry at one’s family, or pining over whether it’s safe to stay in one’s relationship. Whether one is forever alone, or forever left behind. Whether one has regretted or ceased the day.
Life does not give a fuck because it just moves the fuck on, with or without you. Move on!
